What Is Your Drug Of Choice?

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Photo by Gabrielle Allman

I am so thankful, on this fall morning, for the peace and freedom that I am experiencing right now! I have been writing a book and have a deadline for the end of December. It is my story of recovering from an addictive, life altering event.

I have written my journey, in part, on this forum for over three years now. But in the wake of this particular event of my life, I took months off of life, to spend time with The Father, Son and Holy Spirit.  I needed to emotionally heal and I am grateful to my family that I was able to do that. My wish and prayer is that every person could have that space of time to recover from what ever trauma they have experienced and I would love to be a facilitator of that in the future, in a greater way than I am presently.

During that time I wrote out scriptures, some quite artistically, and literally plastered my home with them. They would be in front of my face and I would read them, speak them and meditate on them all day. Yesterday, I had the privilege of reacquainting with a woman who had been at my home during the time of my renewal.  She said she will never forget seeing  those scriptures attached to my walls. She said that she used the bathroom while she was at my home and spent time just reading the verses that were attached to the mirror in there. She too had been entangled in something and God was using the means of renewing my mind, to shed light into her darkness as well. This is the ultimate power that is greater than any other pull of the world, but we have to apprehend it.

Our mind is a magnificent created universe with tremendous pathways that can be re directed. I had built unhealthy ruts in my mind through addictive behaviors and they needed to be rewired and healed.

Romans 12:2  says; Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind.

I had conformed to the pattern of the world and it was downright painful to pull out all of that construction and rebuild, but God had encouraged me on with every Word that He spoke through His Word to me. Jesus became very real and tangible. During that time He pulled down the strongholds of caring what others thought about me, he delivered me from depression and He showed me, so intimately, who I am in Him.

Another scripture that I wrote down in addition to Romans 12:2, was 1 Peter 1:13.

Gird up the loins of your mind, be sober and rest your hope fully upon the grace that is to be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ.

This passage speaks of doing what ever it takes to focus our thoughts on those things that allow us to serve God successfully, all the while eliminating any thoughts that would trip us up. The Hebrew idea was, to pull up long robes and tie them around the waist so that quick and freeing movement could be made.

Are there things that are tripping you up? Do you feel as if you can never get free from the things that bind you and set you back? Do you have dark corners of your heart that you hide from everyone in the world? I did too. God knows, He sees, and His response is always love. No one loves or cares about you more than Him. His plan is for you to reflect His glory and be His light to others in the darkness of the world. Jesus offers Himself to you right now. He is the way, the truth and the life. I did not only say that, He said that about Himself. (John 14:6) Whoever follows Him will not walk in darkness but have the light of life. (John 8:12) It is the most freeing, spiritual and adventurous journey you can ever take.

He cares about your life, your soul, your spirit  and your eternity and so do I.  He is here for you right this minute, again, no matter how many times you have tried and failed. Ask Him to forgive you and renew your mind and set all of your hope on His grace to you. Make Him your obsession and aim. I am right here with you walking this path of wholeness and I am so thankful for the opportunity.

 

 

What Does It Profit to Gain The World and Lose Your Soul?

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In her book; Present Over Perfect, Shauna Niequist writes, “What kills a soul? Exhaustion, secret keeping, image management. And what brings back a soul from the dead? Honesty, connection and grace.”

My soul feels a little lost lately. I am a bit exhausted. I have not been keeping secrets, but I am ever ridding myself of image management. This blog is a hashing out of my mind onto virtual paper.

Honesty: Deep calls out to deep. I live to feel the waterfalls, breakers, and waves of God roll over me. I seek and need that revelation and encouragement to live out this day. If I strive, it is to know who I am in Christ. It is a longing to understand and believe my identity in Him. My value and worth are not in what I own, but in who owns me. The world screams at me that I am foolish and lazy, that I am independent and capable of making my own decisions, to create my own success. Sometimes I lend an ear to that. Too many times I align myself with the voice that says I have failed, and that I am worthless.

Connection: Out of this struggle and and dependence on God, I realize that I am just the container. A cup. A vessel. A receptacle. I hold something of greatness. I am great because of the greatness I hold. I am amazing because I am a unique container, created by a potter in which no two are a like. I am connected to the One who knows all things, who is all things, who owns all things. I reach out to others, I connect, I engage, they drink, and I drink. I apprehend the living water that infuses with my cup to create one unique soul that is like no other and was not meant to be.

Grace: I cannot fail because it is not I that lives any longer, but Christ who lives in me. The life I now live, I choose not to live for myself, as if there were such a thing.  It is Christ in me the Hope of glory. Christ being extended to others with the love and mercy that has been poured into me.

There… my mind is starting to be renewed, and set right. The world is starting now to dissipate, and my soul is being nourished and fattened.