Meet Me In A Forgotten Corner Of My Heart

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Be Still and know that I am God

Be still and know that I love you…that I hold you in the palm of my hand…that I have counted the hairs on your head…that you are the apple of my eye…that your name is written in my heart…”Do not be afraid it is I.”

There is nothing in us that needs to be hidden from God’s love. Our guilt …our shame…our fear…our sins…He wants to see it, touch it, hear it…and make Himself known. There is no other God than the Lord of Love.

Be still and know that I am God. God is not in the storm, nor in the earthquake, nor in the fire, but in the still, small voice , the gentle breeze, and the sheer silence…

Be still and know that I am God. Take these words with you in the week to come…let them be like a little seed planted in the good soil of your heart and let it grow…

Be still and know that I am God.                                                                  – Henri Nouwen

Creating Margin…

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I have known for a long time that I need a lot of space for myself to be quiet, read, and pray  to be the person I was created to be. God rested on the 7th day and Jesus often retreated to a quiet place, why do we think we can just keep motoring through hour after hour, day after day?! This morning, I was reading a John Maxwell devotional and John takes 20% of his time- roughly 3 hours a day, to schedule nothing. Doing the math, that adds up to 6 days a month and 72 days a year!! He calls this Essential Time Off.  It allows his mind to be quiet and re focus on the things that are in front of him or be present for his family. He says that he is much more efficient with this un- scheduled time, scheduled in, than he would be with out it.

I have come to find this true again and again. No one is going to provide this margin to you or I. Others will keep taking our time if we let them and this concept of creating space takes great intentionality. Our world and our lives are so complex, we need scheduled times of peace. I just enjoyed 3 days off and it was great to put demands on hold while I spent precious time with my family. When I get back into my schedule, I will continue to have a few hours off every morning to focus on who I really am and what purposes I am here for.

In seasons when I have been really over committed, I find that just one more thing, even if it is seemingly insignificant or mundane, can make me implode if I am not having sufficient quiet time.  This time ultimately allows me to release creativity and stop to think about, and address, the details of my life- something that simply cannot be done on the run. This time also re aligns me with who I really am not just the roles I fill for others. If Jesus needed time to rest and listen to His Father,  I am sure there is abundant wisdom to realize that we need it even more!

I am right here walking this path of wholeness with you and I would love to hear from you today!

 

True Self

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I have been on a journey the last few years. I had been calling it a healing journey, but Kelly Flanagan in his book, Lovable, has challenged me to call it being wholed. I resonate with that because I often pray Shalom over myself and others. The Hebrew word, Shalom, is often linked to the word peace but it is so much more than that, it is wholeness, integrity, completeness, perfection.

I am not writing from an attitude of wholeness today. I feel anything but whole, complete or perfect. But it does not really matter how I feel about it! My true self is whole, complete, full of integrity and perfect!

“In the first act of life, we begin to overcome the disunity at the center of our self, which was wrought by our shame. We embrace the confused and lost little one in us, we return to our worthy and good-enough soul, and we come back into union with the divine spark underneath our underneath. We coalesce around our true self.” KF

I started painting with my daughter during the time my husband and I were separated. We have continued this activity together and it has been wholing. I painted this the other evening. I have been intensely wrestling with God concerning my purpose and my passion. It feels like there is nothing left to squeeze out of me, nothing else to burn, waiting for the “who I am on the inside and what I do on the outside to become one”.

The separateness we feel is truly an illusion and I am easily convinced by it when I see how I behave sometimes or when I look at my circumstances. But the truth is, I am whole and complete and perfect. I have a life full of meaning that is repeatedly being pulled free from shame and into my divine purpose. That is my true self.

Addicted To The Chaos

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Like this page from  Shauna Neiquist’s, Present Over Perfect says, when we are addicted, it is damaging to us. We keep running back to the “false comforter” in what ever form that is, be it a person, a substance, work, busyness, etc., and it does comfort for a minute but it is in a vacuum. What ever comfort we get at the moment is over shadowed by torment the rest of the day…the pull of it is almost unbearable, but it destroys from the inside out.

As we head into a new year, I pray that I would be free from the things that have held me captive and I pray it for you too! Maybe you need to slow down and you know it, but keep putting that off. Maybe you need to cut off an un-healthy relationship and you know it, but you are passive-waiting for a better relationship to come along. Maybe you are addicted to something that you cannot seem to live with out. With man, any of these things can be impossible to over come. But With God, all things are Possible! Emmanuel, God IS With US! And NO ONE, loves you more than Him! The false comforters will destroy us; our minds, our emotions and our relationships. Come to the true Comforter, The Prince of Peace, who is able to do above and beyond what we can ask or think.

Blessings to You in The Name of Jesus in the New Year! True Health to your mind, will and emotions! I am right here, journeying with you, and I would love to hear from you today<3

Do Not Worry

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I was having a conversation with our oldest daughter last evening. She was telling me that it is accepted as normal for Millennials to be stressed and anxious! She was sharing some realizations with me about who she is and what she has learned about her self and I was relating things I have learned about my self and how we have some similarities.

I am so happy for her that she is learning not to be stressed and anxious at a young age and she is accepting of her self in areas that she feels the culture saying; “press through, try harder, suck it up”! She is learning where to let go and accept her limitations and seek peace in stead of striving in her life.

I have been re reading Dale Carnegie’s book; How to Stop Worrying and Start Living! A co worker gave me this book to read when I was 18 years old and working in a dead end job. I didn’t have a relationship with The Lord the first time I read it, but the bits of scripture that were peppered through the book made me curious enough to read The Bible.

Carnegie gives three steps for eradicating worry that were devised by Willis H. Carrier, the engineer who launched the air-conditioning industry, through his own journey with anxiety. He gave multiple examples of business people who have used these steps with life altering success. Even those who were on their death beds with stomach ulcers and other health concerns.

Carrier hailed  this as the Magic Formula for Solving Worry Situations: 

  1. Ask yourself, “What is the worst that can possibly happen?”
  2.  Prepare to accept it if you have to.
  3.  Then calmly proceed to improve on the worst.

I was presented with the opportunity to use these steps this past weekend! There were some relationship issues that were troubling me and I used this method to help myself deal with the situation. I also had to agree, that in the past when I was in a huge trial, that this is exactly what I had to do to move through it!

Jesus said: (Matthew 6:26) “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?

There have been times when Jesus Spoke clearly and directly to me regarding turbulent times and told me to look straight at Him and not the waves that were crashing all around me.  I know He doesn’t  want us to worry and be stressed. He wants us to trust Him.  I find, like Willis Carrier, that acceptance of the situation is a must if we want to move forward in peace. And acceptance requires thinking about the situating, counting the cost, and accepting my part or failure in any given situation.

Back to the conversation I had with my daughter, I was so grieved that so many young people feel hopeless and helpless, paralyzed by stress. Of course in my Aromatherapy business, I have designed my Calm Down and Lighten Up roller bottle for just that sort of support. I am also aware that there is an anxiety epidemic in the world that play out in many  mental health and behavioral problems. Debilitating diagnosis like,  Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, is not just reserved for those who have been in war like situations. So, I felt so inspired to write and bring a glimmer of hope and help to some one else who may be struggling with this 21st Century “disease”.

Get knowledge! And in all your getting, get Understanding! I pray for each of you as I pray for myself, that we would not worry and we would have The Peace that surpasses all understanding to guard our hearts and minds. Happy Monday, have a peace filled week<3

 

Give Thanks.

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In Everything give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.  1 Thessalonians 5:18

Thank you God that I woke up this morning! Thank you for the soft pillow and warm blankets on my bed.

Thank you that I have a loving husband who holds me when I wake up and thank you that he has a wife, because you call that a good thing and favor from your hand. Thank you that we have electricity and running water! Thank you that my joints work and I can walk, run and exercise.

Thank you that I have children that I was not supposed to have and they are all a blessing and an inheritance, because that is what you have called them.

Thank you that we have food and clothing. Thank you that we have appliances and vehicles. Thank you for the ability you have given us to praise and worship you and to reach out to others with the comfort we have received. Thank you for the ability we have to learn, read, grow and work.

Thank you for the people that you have placed in our lives through family and friendship.Thank you for the beauty that you have created in this world.( I especially like hemlocks and streams in the woods!;-) Thank you that even though we have trouble and tribulation in the world, that you have given us peace and you have over come the world! Thank you that through your blood, I am more than a conqueror! Thank you that I am forgiven, accepted, and pleasing to you! Thank you, Thank you that you are right now preparing me a home where I can dwell with you forever.

Thank you for this day. Thank you for the ability to be thankful! Thank you that we can not only pray, but that you want to commune with us continually in prayer! Thank you for all who read this, and I pray Blessings, Peace and Grace to each one in The Name of Jesus Christ.

Happy Thanksgiving.

Vulnerability

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I got to pray with some one this weekend. I spoke at a church and sang some songs I have written about my journey of forgiveness. Learning to forgive my self, others, and even God. This woman desperately wanted to forgive a particular person who has caused much pain in her life. I told her God can not bring the fruits of forgiveness until we forgive, even if we do not feel like it.

I have experienced forgiveness only works when you are vulnerable. Vulnerability can be painful. It is easier to be closed off and hard, but the rewards are only no pain (and I don’t really believe there is no pain in that.) But when we are soft and vulnerable, forgiveness and new life can flow, like healthy cells into a wound. Vulnerability in Forgiveness brings healing<3 Have a great weekend.